Before
I genuinely began to cultivate and nurture my relationship with God, I
regarded the five daily prayers that Islam enjoins on believers as
laborious. It seemed impractical to expect that I would be able to stop
what I was doing during my busy work schedule to take time out and pray.
Working
as a news wire journalist, I was often spending upwards of 10 hours a
day in the office or at conferences, interviews and meetings, barely
able to make time for a lunch break. If I wasn't working, my time was
divided between house chores, errands, family and friends, and exercise.
I was punctual with everything in my life, except that I was late five
times a day.
In
my mind, it was not viable to expect that I could wake up before the
crack of dawn to pray the early-morning prayer, fajr, otherwise I would
be too tired to work effectively later that morning. It also seemed
inefficient to interrupt my work meetings to pray duhr, the mid-day
prayer, and asr, the afternoon prayer.
Making
the sunset prayer maghrib was often a challenge because the window to
pray is typically quite short and coincides with the time between
finishing work, having dinner and returning home. So, in effect, the
only prayer that was feasible for me to pray on time was isha, the
evening prayer. For most of my life, thus, I would at best pray all five
prayers in the evening, or skip prayers here and there to accommodate
my immediate commitments.
Without
realizing it, my inconsistency and approach to praying trivialized the
principle behind performing prayers throughout the day. I believed in
God and loved Him, but on my own terms, not on the terms very clearly
set out in the Quran and Prophetic teachings. Yet praying the five daily
prayers, at their prescribed times, is the backbone of being a Muslim;
we cannot stand upright in our faith without them. It is one of the
essential practices that God has called on those who endeavor to live in
Islam, a state of existence whereby a human strives to live in
submission to God.
When
I came to truly understand the importance of prayer, the realization
was both overwhelming and quick. It dawned on me that if I was not
fulfilling this precondition, then I really could not claim to be
Muslim. Even if I desired to have a solid connection with the Almighty I
was not taking the necessary steps to do so. I promptly reoriented my
life and it has now been a year and a half that I have not intentionally
missed a prayer time, whether I am in the office, mall, grocery store,
out with friends or travelling.
Looking
back, I see how wrong I was about the impracticality of Islamic
prayers, which are succinct and straightforward notwithstanding their
resonance. When I moved from trying to fit prayers into my life to
fitting my life around my prayer schedule, I instantly removed a great
deal of clutter from my daily routine. Since regular prayer promotes
emotional consistency and tranquility, I began to eliminate excess
negativity and cut down on unnecessary chitchat, helping me be more
focused, productive and patient.
Over
a short period of time, what amazed me was how easy and fluid the
prayers became. Performing the early-morning prayer actually gave me a
burst of energy during the day and, gradually, the prayers that I had
initially perceived as cumbersome became an essential facet of my
routine. With God's help, I would find ways to make a prayer regardless
of the hurdles. While in Canada for the summer, I would often catch duhr
prayer in a department store fitting room, with the help of a handy
Islamic prayer compass application on my iPhone.
"'Verily
the soul becomes accustomed to what you accustom it to.' That is to
say: what you at first burden the soul with becomes nature to it in the
end."
This is a line drawn from a magnificent book I am in the process of reading by great Islamic thinker Al-Ghazali, entitled
"Invocations and Supplications: Book IX of the Revival of Religious Sciences." Al-Ghazali
describes a series of formulas, drawn from the Qur'an and Hadith, which
we can repeat to help us attain greater proximity to the divine and
purify our hearts.
At
each turn in my quest to enrich my faith, I have found that what at
first appears difficult becomes easy when performed with sincerity. Soon
after I reoriented my life to revolve around prayer, the five prayers
felt insufficient in expressing my devotion. I examined Hadith, or the
traditions of Prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him,
and discovered there were optional prayers I could add to my routine.
Since then, I have not let a day pass without praying them.
To
supplement my prayers, I have integrated various zikr, or remembrance
and mentioning of God, into my days. Zikr, including repeating such
phrases as
"la illa ha il Allah" (There is no God but Allah), habitually draws our attention back to God.
Among
the many rich invocations mentioned in Ghazali's book is this one which
I have started to incorporate. As we leave our houses each day, if we
say "In the name of Allah" (Bismillah), Allah will guide us; when we add
"I trust in Allah" (Tawakalt al Allah), Allah will protect us; and if we conclude with
"There is no might or power save with Allah" (La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah), Allah will guard us.
I
suppose to an outsider, these acts of devotion can appear a bit
obsessive, and I have had a couple of people say this to me. Yet it is
an obsession with the greatest possible consequences that can improve
rather than disintegrate one's disposition. The more time I devote to
Allah, the greater the peace of mind I find filling my life and the more
focused I become on what is important -- such as treating my family and
friends honourably, working hard in my job, giving charity with
compassion and generosity, and maintaining integrity.
Remembering
Allah throughout the day, through prayer and invocation, truly does
polish the heart as Hadith teaches; you erase obstructions that would
impede faith in its purest form.
"Truly
when a man loves a thing, he repeatedly mentions it, and when he
repeatedly mentions a thing, even if that may be burdensome, he loves
it,"writes Ghazali.
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